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salam wahai pembaca blog sekalian.

again, today the same situation happened and it become worse day by day.

all because the status i wrote:

"Kalau banyak sangat benda tak best jadik kat kau sebab kau jahat sangat. enuff said"

honestly, this status wasn't about anyone but rather about my self-reflection.
it's a RANDOM thought as i reflected my school day during my practicum.

yeah, practicum sucks because i have too much thing to do. apart from that, yeah, called me selfish,,, i don't even have time to spend with my family.

i don't have time to think about others and to my surprise, one of my aunties feel annoyed by my status update.

she wrote:

kita belum cukup baik nak ckp org lain camtu....biar jelah...kalau kita ni jenis manusia yg tahu agama,tahu solat,serah jelah pada Allah...n kali ni mmg curious nak tahu sgt, sapa lah yg jahat kali ni?hari tu mmg dah tahu wlpn ko ckp kununnya tak berkaitan ngn sape2...kali ni sape pulak???

okay. i wasn't aware by her comment until one of my friend replied the status without knowing the previous writer was my auntie. then case become complicated.

so i told him that, the status is a reminder to myself. to better person day by day. it wasn't about anyone. yeah, it's about what happened around me. the girl who is having her practicum in the same school with me encountered some trouble. and i was thinking about her.so, i reflect myself along the way.

i was shocked! because for me facebook is about freedom of speech. about what happened around us. until it become so serious that it can tear one family apart.

what i did wrong in my status? did i quote anyone's name? did i relate it to anyone's life?

Hell, no!

i have put aside thing that happened previously in my facebook. i just don't wanna think about it because i accept her advice to be independent and don't ask for anyone help. i did. and i get over thing easily. i even treat my cousin with huge welcome.

then why on earth she want to question about my status anymore. the word 'curios' is a big word. why you bother? do you think what i wrote in my status is about the previous story that i wanna forget?


No, i get over it!

here, again in the rainy day during the weekend. i sit silently in front of the desktop thinking upon it. again and again.


i am not a faker.
i am not a person who love to talk about others behind their back.
i am a clear and straight forward person.
and i am sorry because we have different style of thinking.

all i know, everything happen in my life was not about family only.

i have friends
i have students
i have teachers
i have mentors
i have boyfriend
i have a life

and my facebook is a place to speak up my mind. to do some reflection.

even though we share the same blood, but yes we have different type of mentality.

the way i view life is totally different then yours.

and i am truly sorry because my life wasn't always revolved around you.

it's rather bout me, my school life, friends and the bitches.

thing bout family, i rather keep it low. and acted like i don't know a thing about it


one more thing, if the status is really about you, then i would hide it which i don't!

then ,,i can clarify that. hell yeah! it wasn't about u.

haish, why life is getting more difficult day by day?

to be able to speak up our mind would cause you so much trouble.

why? why?

i could not be bother anymore. life sucks. people are mean too.